Well I guess...

Maturing, it happens to the best of us??? No... I used to think the whole "young til i die" thing meant running around like an irresponsible 15 year old every night trying to fight "society" and hold my "youth" dearly without any regard for other people. Now sayings like that make 100x more sense to me. I definitely have had my share of regrettable actions, but lately I've been trying to look at them as learning points. I don't hang out with nearly 75%(if not more) of the people I considered close friends three years ago. Some for specific reasons, others because we just grew apart. I wonder if that is typical for people to go through. Weird. I'm going to get off this subject before I start opening up doorways. ok time to go. night night

fuck

its been a long time. sorry. fuck a lot. building my new bmx has proved to be the most frustrating shit ever. everything that could not fit or be fucked up has done just that. God's laughing. my moped got stolen this week. yay. Satan is laughing. I have to do two weeks of annoying bullshit starting bright and early tomorrow. I am trying to keep myself in the right mindset and attitude but shit is really fucking obnoxious right now. I still have the few things in life that actually matter so I should really stop being a materialist dipshit but its hard. Ugh. Barf. If something productive doesn't happen soon I'm going to shit myself.