cool

brett and the missus just came by. it was tight seeing him. <3

man

so much going on. trying to clean up/pack up/get up everything for this little trek of mine that is moving cross country. im really really anxious but in a good way. i think its going to be such a positive experience for me. my life has taken so many weird turns in the past few years, but overall im pleased with the life i live and the future im paving way for. i have a really hard time focusing on things. just saying. i hope i dont have to leave TOO much behind on this move... i hope i get a good job and can go back to school(AND ENJOY IT!!!!)

we will see...

i will miss a hand full of people. i will not miss a ton of people. sorry that sounds bitter, but i mean that in a really good way because im stoked to be away from so many dipshits that crawl the streets of richmond.

mail is so weird, i tend to get stressed about getting a letter these days since its just weird army shit or credit card applications or bank statements/bills. always shit i try for 3 seconds to read but end up tossing and hoping it wasn't important. life is so fucking crazy. it continues to astonish me every single day. so weird.

i dont really know how to put a lot of my thoughts into words(BIG SURPRISE HUH??) i don't even know how to think about them clearly in my head. i need to start working out again but i probably wont until we get to san diego. oh well.

i hope i dont run into a million problems right off the bat out there, it would harsh my mellow. i'm into this positive lifestyle and mind set.

signing out...

so there i was...

2:05


but anyway...

Just got back from San Francisco, it faggin ruled. Can't wait to move my happy ass out to San Diego this Fall with muh #1 homegurl Bethy D. Missed opening night of The Dark Knight(or maybe it was The Black Knight, you know, with Martin Lawrence) but thats okay. I dont have TOO much more to post. goin to AC tomorrow!!!!!! going to drink for free, stay for cheap, and watch jonathan and justin win big bucks while i play penny slots. should rule. Ill be in Vermont for about a week in early August. Then I just ride out the next month (and by ride I mean ride.. BMX) with scott as beth and I make final living arrangements for the WEST COAST!!! wow thats going to be awesome. gonna miss some of you bottom feeders, but you know who to call when you need a vacation!!!

Well I guess...

Maturing, it happens to the best of us??? No... I used to think the whole "young til i die" thing meant running around like an irresponsible 15 year old every night trying to fight "society" and hold my "youth" dearly without any regard for other people. Now sayings like that make 100x more sense to me. I definitely have had my share of regrettable actions, but lately I've been trying to look at them as learning points. I don't hang out with nearly 75%(if not more) of the people I considered close friends three years ago. Some for specific reasons, others because we just grew apart. I wonder if that is typical for people to go through. Weird. I'm going to get off this subject before I start opening up doorways. ok time to go. night night

fuck

its been a long time. sorry. fuck a lot. building my new bmx has proved to be the most frustrating shit ever. everything that could not fit or be fucked up has done just that. God's laughing. my moped got stolen this week. yay. Satan is laughing. I have to do two weeks of annoying bullshit starting bright and early tomorrow. I am trying to keep myself in the right mindset and attitude but shit is really fucking obnoxious right now. I still have the few things in life that actually matter so I should really stop being a materialist dipshit but its hard. Ugh. Barf. If something productive doesn't happen soon I'm going to shit myself.

Mental

I have a lot that i want to write down. A lot I want to read. A lot that I need to do. I am going to write something on Time Management soon. Hopefully. I also want to write some "Flash Fiction" as Paste magazine described it. I guess theres a growing trend of people writing short stories and posting them as blogs. Sounds creative. I'll give it a shot sometime soon. In the mean time i'll be kicking myself in the butt.

xoxoxo

ps- Joe, Beth, and I had a very extreme conversation on how we could turn ourselves into robots. No more money on tattoos...just hardware upgrades. I'm gonna start with a pacemaker.

little spark(i'm tired and about to go to bed)

Recently, scott has been talking about staying aware of his attitude and focusing on more positive angles than he has in the past. I am really proud of him for trying to better himself and I'm definitely using that as an inspiration to try and better myself. I don't know when I became so stuck up but when i've been having deeper conversations with people recently i find myself thinking that i sound like a know-it-all bastard most of the time. thats not cool. i need an attitude adjustment. i'm trying to wise up, but i think i really just need to sleep right now. i'll try to expand on this more soon....check out scotts blog(i've got it linked..)